Monday, December 20, 2010
The 4 year old & Christmas
Confession: I haven't really done anything for anybody else this Christmas season. In the past we've went to help feed someone that can't afford it, or gotten an angel off of a tree, or SOMETHING, but not this year. It's so easy to get consumed in ourselves, isn't it? To be so caught up in things that, excuse me, truly don't matter in the end. Gift giving and getting is awesome- especially to the ones you love... to see their faces light up is truly priceless. I just hope that we don't ever feel justified in asking our children, or ourselves, "What's the true meaning of Christmas, getting the answer "Jesus", and then continue on in our consumerism and selfishness. Ouch- that sounded harsh, but it's true. God forgive me. I want to always have balance in my life, and try and somehow pass that balance on to my children. I want to look beyond myself and realize the world is BIG. While I go out shopping and spending, I want to remember that somewhere in Ethiopia there is a 2 yr old rummaging through a trash can for food with no mommy or daddy... or hope for that matter. I want to keep the bigger picture, not just at Christmas, but always. Jesus, show me every day ways that I can be You to those who need Your love and Your truth.
Can you inspire me? How have you gone beyond yourself this Christmas season?? Please share! If you, like me, haven't looked beyond yourself, I'll tell you what I just told Jonah. We still have 6 more days :-)
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Something Special
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Laughing... in spite of myself!!
Today has been a funny one. Funny in a way that there have been many moments where I just laugh because I can't do anything about it. Savannah has wanted to be held all day and is super sensitive. If Jonah even looks at her wrong she starts "crying". Note the quotation marks... it's not real. Jonah, my 4 year old, has somehow lost his will to use his own brain and be creative to play or find something to do on his own. Lots of whining. Lots. Thank God for friends to talk to and laugh about it with... friends who totally understand where you're at and what you're dealing with. I love you Jennifer! I told her that we have watched TV too much today, ate carbs for lunch, and really have done nothing productive. WAIT- we DID paint Christmas ornaments that turned out super cute. I've gotta put a picture in them, but- that's productive. Score :)
Anyway- Jay's coming home late and I'm just here... with a pile of laundry in my living room floor that I'm going to do while watching a movie. It'd totally be done already if those little college brats didn't invent Facebook. Dang facebook time waster. Wait- what's so and so doing that I haven't talked to in 13 years?? GOTTA KNOW. (Yeah, right). Once again, laughing at myself!! It's good to have these days. I think it keeps me in check. Tabitha is normal. I have crap days, I yell at my kids when I shouldn't, my house is never really clean, and well, excuse me- I'm not telling you everything!! I am STILL super awesome and rock at what I do. I know this and that's why I can laugh. Baha, haha, haha. (and no, I will not put 'lol' because frankly I've come to hate 'lol'... especially when people think they can put it on the end of everything they "say" on the computer. It annoys me.) Anyway- go laugh at yourself!! I still like you even if you use 'lol'... it's just a personal thing. No worries :-)
Sunday, November 28, 2010
The Day After
Thanksgiving in all it's gloriousness has come and gone. I woke up at 5:30 this morning to say our last goodbye, and as I look around, my house shows remnants of those who have come... and gone. For those of you that have family right around the corner, or even somewhat close by, you should be thankful. I hate saying goodbye. I actually heard Boys II Men singing 'It's so hard to say goodbye' in my head before the sun came up this morning. I guess saying that says 'Hello everyone, I'm in my 30's', but it's true!! Oh no, now I just thought of those awkward 8th grade dances. Let's move on...
The point is to say it's so fabulous to see family and the chaos that comes with it all, but it does seem a little empty when it's all over after holidays, doesn't it? I have to admit, I did love having my Starbucks Sumatra and laying my head on the studhubs chest watching the sun come up over the horizon... in silence. God, I love him. I loved seeing the sun accenting his eyelashes... his face... Umm, sorry- sometimes I can't help myself when it comes to him.
So with that sunrise comes a new day. A day when my fall decorations that I LOVE have to come down to make way for the Christmas decorations that, honestly, I'm not really ready to pull out. A new day that I get to be with my family before the craziness of a new week and the month of December bring. I love new days and new sunrises- it's such a gift, really. It's freaking awesome. If it's been a while before you truly sat and watched the sun come up, you gotta do it. Soon.
It's a new day, it's a new dawn, it's a new life~ and I'm feelin' good :) Hope you are too.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Gobble, gobble
3 cheers for a gym membership for Christmas. I swear that's what I'm asking for. Crap on all the people that get up tomorrow morning to workout or walk to burn off those future calories. Suck it up... take it like a real woman and just eat one day and not feel bad about it. I do it all the time. OH WAIT... crap again. I guess that's why I'm asking for a gym membership for Christmas and buying sizes that I don't want to. Maybe you're on to something... oh well, HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
I mean, really?!?
Thanksgiving is in 2 days and yet I sit here with a lap full of complaints... with so very much in my life to be thankful for. How I act, feel, re-act is all my choice. I teach that to my 4 yr. old but don't truly have a grip on it myself. SO... Here I sit.
I will choose to be thankful. Thankful for this warm home- warm in so many ways. Thankful for friends, both new and old who make my life so much better. Thankful for this mess- mostly made by 2 treasured amazing gifts that God has entrusted to me. Jonah & Savannah have made me a better person and have made my life AMAZING. Thankful that I got to kiss the face of a man this morning who walks in Godly character, who sings & plays music with me, a great husband & daddy. Oh my goodness- I really could go on and on and on for the things that I am thankful for. I mean, really... on and on and on. So with the tears welling up in my eyes, I realize that my choice to sit here and write this has changed my attitude in minutes. WOW. My heart is full.
I'm getting off of here to wipe my eyes and get moving on this day with a new outlook & a fresh perspective. Lord, You are good. I come to You with a heart of thanks and praise for all You are, and for all You've done and are going to do. I lay my burdens and pettiness down at Your feet and surrender this day to You. Thank You for taking care of me, for always knowing what I need when I need it. So I choose to be grateful and thankful THIS day... the day YOU have made for me. Love you Jesus.
Monday, November 22, 2010
The Studhubs
(If I could figure out how to add a picture, I would insert one of his handsome face right here.)